Killer nurse Lucy Letby kept an unsettling treasure trove of souvenirs as mementos of the seven babies she murdered.
The 32-year-old monster hid nursing handouts and CPR slips at her home in Chester.
Police also recovered a thank you note from the parents of the twins she had assaulted and a photograph of a condolence card she had sent to the mother of one of her victims.
The nurse had scribbled powerful notes in journals and on sticky notes, including one that read: “I’m bad, I did this.”
The note continued, “I don’t deserve to live. I killed her on purpose because I’m not good enough to take care of her.”
“I’m a terrible person.”
Other notes were declarations of love to an unidentifiable fellow doctor, whom she kept confiding in as her death toll mounted.
There were also some that said “Kill me” and “Help me” as well as the names of some of the babies she had murdered.
In one, Letby wrote: “I can’t do this anymore. I can’t live like this.”
“No one will ever understand or appreciate what it’s like.”
She also wrote, “I loved you,” adding, “I wanted you to stand by me but you didn’t.”
Letby also kept detailed handover records of 13 of the children she had either killed or injured.
Another 99 contained information about babies she had treated while working as a nursing student.
Her very first handover sheet was found in a keepsake box decorated with roses, while others had been stored in garbage bags in her garage or at her parents’ house.
A lifelong bag hidden under Letby’s bed contained resuscitation notes scribbled on a paper towel relating to the victim of the attempted murder, Baby M.
During her trial, Letby claimed the twisted booty was simply because she was “paper collecting.”
However, the jury was told that she did in fact keep the notes to look up her victims’ parents after targeting their children.
This included Child E’s mother, who murdered Letby by injecting air into her bloodstream.
Between the baby’s death in August 2015 and January 2016, she searched the mother’s name on Facebook nine times.
In the course of her 12-month killing spree, Letby made a total of 2,380 searches on Facebook — 277 of them in one month alone.
She claimed it’s a “normal pattern” for her to search Facebook for the parents of babies she’s treated more than once, as they’re “often on my mind.”
Letby was today convicted of seven counts of murder after a nine-month trial and 22 days of jury deliberation.
The monster’s horrifying death toll makes her Britain’s most prolific killer nurse and one of Britain’s worst serial killers of all time.
She was also found guilty of the attempted murder of another six babies as the families of some of her victims comforted each other in court.
The nurse will be sentenced on Monday.