VICKY Pattison has revealed she has been diagnosed with a life-changing medical condition that is leaving her with “dark thoughts”.
The 35-year-old TV personality said she broke down in tears after finally being told what “relentless and debilitating” illness she had been suffering from for the past five years.
Doctors say Vicky has premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), a very severe form of premenstrual syndrome (PMS).
Symptoms include insomnia, extreme tiredness, depression, mood swings, extreme hopelessness, and dark thoughts.
She told fans, “I’ve struggled with my periods my entire adult life — but for the past five years or so my PMS symptoms have been completely out of control.”
“It has affected my relationships, my work and my quality of life.
“Sometimes I felt like I was going insane – I just don’t recognize myself for two weeks a month and little by little that period gets longer and longer.”
“Sometimes when I’m in the thick of it and completely consumed by my own dark thoughts, I convince myself that I’ll never get better, that these feelings and thoughts aren’t temporary. That I am.” Now. And that scares me.”
Describing past “embarrassing” doctor visits, Vicky said, “I was made to feel hysterical and unable to deal with the physical and mental consequences of a period like any other woman could.”
After pushing her limits in recent months, Vicky said she’s tired of feeling “exhausted and overwhelmed” and hiding her symptoms.
“It’s like my brain hates me,” she said.
“I’m depressed, discouraged, and hopeless, and I have no interest in things that I usually enjoy so much.”
Eventually, after Vicky sought private medical care, she was diagnosed with PMDD.
“I cried because for the first time in years I felt like I was being heard in a medical setting and I also cried because now hopefully I can start to come to terms with it rather than just carry on like I’m trying to be like a feel woman.” are expected.
“For the first time in ages I’m feeling more positive.”